You Are an Overcomer!!!

I'm going to share a very personal testimony in this particular blog post.  I believe that sharing this portion of my life will be beneficial to many. Also, I have my husband's permission so.... Here we go.
Early in our marriage, my husband was abusive; both physically and mentally. I considers youth extremely sheltered. My parents never do much as argued in front of my brother and I. As a child, I can recall no altercations between my mother and father. This is the picture of marriage that I had in my mind as I grew up. My husband's background is extremely different, so his picture of marriage was altered from mine. Without going into detail, his upbringing was the absolute opposite of mine.
While this phase of our marriage was going on, I delivered 2 children within a year's time. So not only was I dealing with an abusive relationship, but I was also facing extreme postpartum depression. During this time, I refused I speak to anyone. I never answered my phone, I accepted no visitors. I withdrew from the world completely.
The breaking point in this dark time of my life was when I tried to commit suicide. My doctor prescribed medication to relieve the symptoms of the depression that was oppressing my life, however it had the exact opposite effect and made it worse. I had begun cutting myself and eventually I attempted to overdose on the medicine that I was prescribed.
During the the of my hospital recovery, I laid in the bed literally wishing that God allow me to die. Sure, I had 4 children, but my thoughts had me convinced that they would be better off without my influence in their life. I felt as though I was no good to my husband, my children, or my family in general.
 Let me just say this: The devil and his minions are real... Very real. But they are also very much liars and deceivers. They're job is to attempt to kill you, steal your stuff or destroy your life. (John 10:10)

I am a living testimony that the Power of God is greater than any devil you encounter.
Romans 8:37
  Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. (NKJV)

I am a walking, talking example that God is great and greatly to be praised. I am a model of the goodness of Jesus. I am a walking megaphone for giving glory to God. 

I am more than a conqueror.

 Need I go on?
Why am I telling you this?
Because someone needs to know that they are not alone and they can make it.
Depression is real. I'll raise my hand to that. But the power of my God more real.
You can make it through whatever you and your marriage are facing. You are stronger than depression.
You are victorious over rejection.
You greater than abuse.
You can make it.

I prayed and sought he Lord and He answered. My husband is delivered and my marriage is stronger. We are stronger.
I'm not telling you to stay in an abusive marriage. I'm not saying to overlook extreme circumstances in your own marriage. But what I can say is seek the Lord for yourself. No form of abuse is permissible; it's all wrong. However the Lord is greater than it all.
 

I want to leave a couple of other things with you:

First and foremost, no form of abuse is okay or acceptable. If you are being abused, it is up to you to take care of yourself and seek out help. Remember that it is not your fault. There is nothing wrong with you and there is nothing wrong with calling the police. My husband and I separated for a while after the abuse began, and we decided to reconcile. It never happened again. In no way, shape or form am I condoning staying in an abusive relationship.
 
Also, If you have children, be extremely aware of how you interact with your spouse in their presence. Even I'd you are having an issue, show nothing less than love, support and a united front. Your marriage is the feet example of love that they will see. It's important that it be healthy and meaningful.
And whatever happens, you can  make it.
 

Stay encouraged.